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Part 3 of my Life Saga

2011-10-18T16:52:00.000-07:00

Saturday= Up, Down

Saturday was a fun/crazy packed day. Homecoming was ridiculously fun. My date is the funniest kid in the world. And it was fire season so that was too great. Although a certain someone was being too annoying for words, and every time she spoke I wanted to punch her. It was actually kinda hilarious.

Sunday= Down, Up

I get to my brother's soccer game and literally have the world's biggest breakdown because I find out that my family is going to the pumpkin patch that we always go to together as a family. And I was actually just devastated because 1) we always do it together 2) it's my last year before I leave and 3) I knew that I had too much homework and I wouldn't be able to go. But I ended up ditching work and deciding to do it later so I could spend some quality time with the fam jam. And I won't lie. It might have been the best decision of my life. It was so great! I had such a fun time. And as cheesy as it sounds, it really was some of the best memories I've had with my family.

Tuesday=Down

Bottom point: getting bitched at by a teacher might be the worst feeling in the world. And holding back tears today on the morning announcements might have been the worst thing ever especially since all day people kept asking me why I looked so sad on announcements and ended up crying at the end of the day. YAY for a basket case of emotions. Surely my Life Saga is now complete, and hopefully it'll stay that way....

Part 2 of my Life Saga

2011-10-18T16:41:00.001-07:00

Friday=Up: Someone once said "Each day is better than the last; so each day is the best day ever." Well this definitely stands true for Friday. Friday might have actually been one of the funniest days of my life. Yeah I know grand change from yesterday.

Friday was just flat out hilarious. For some reason all my teachers were in such great moods and extremely funny. But I won't take you through the whole day, I'll just fast forward to the good part. Aka my AP Environmental class. Apparently my best friend, Nate, had this master plan of asking me to Homecoming that I was unaware of. So I walk into class and immediately go straight over to see my fish and make sure she's still alive in our Eco-column. As I am intently checking on her I hear the kid behind me laugh as he tell me to look at the board. As I look at the board I see that my name is on the board. As soon as I saw my name on the board I was so worried. I thought I was in trouble or somethingggg. Then I continue to read and it was Nate asking me to Homecoming in form of the Question of the Day. I nervously laugh because I realize that I hadn't noticed for about ten minutes. I say yes of course. Then we split into groups and my group (being the best one of course) goes into a medley of songs like we always do. We are quite musical. And cracked jokes about our snail having died of old age of fifteen days. He went to snail retirement home. Sunrise Living for Snails. I don't know why but that makes me laugh. Lols the word...

Also Cynthia came home from France! And that was too exciting for words and too much fun for words. So on that note: over and out.

Part 2 of my Life Saga

2011-10-18T16:41:00.000-07:00

Part 1 of my Life Saga

2011-10-18T16:20:00.000-07:00

I know it's been awhile but I've actually been crazy busy. And too much has happened from Thursday to today that I couldn't help but make a blog to commemorate this cookoo banana butts days.

Thursday= Down: May have been the worst day I've ever had. As I'm driving to school my car is making this god awful noise that resembles the sound a tiger makes when it's hungry. I'll pull into school only to see that smoke is coming out of my hood. I brush it off and head into school. After school my car won't stop. Finally, after several hours of the guys helping me out we get to start. So I drive home extra slow as it still makes the noise. Once I'm about five minutes from home, my car stalls in the middle of the street and once I get it to turn on smoke goes EVERYWHERE. Like huge amounts. I was scared, to say the least. So I pull over into the nearest gas station and dart out of my car. And stare at it starting to cry has huge smoke clouds surround it. And as soon as I start to cry it starts pouring rain. Then I'm stuck at the gas station for about an hour waiting for my dad to come get me. Then I finally get home and let Patch and Peter my fellow Exec Board members my fiasco and ask them if they could pick up my work for the night. As soon as I post this Peter gives me a call. Backstory: Peter has this crazy crush on me and it's extremely awkward. You know when someone really likes you and you've given them plenty hints that you're just not interested yet they continue to pursue you and make it awkward which really only makes you not able to stand the person? Yeah well that's Peter. So I call him back and he says to me, "Hey, I was gonna ask you this tomorrow but since I won't be in 8th period I was just wondering would you wanna go to homecom---" I interrupt him short by shouting "HELLO??? PETER? YOU THERE? I CANT HERE YOU." Yes I know it was such an awful thing to do. But let's review this for my benefit please: 1) Seriously? Asking me to homecoming over the phone, especially after I told you I had an awful day. 2) This is really for his benefit. I did it for him. I couldn't say no cause that's awful and the rest of the year would be awkward. And I couldn't say yes either because I don't feel the same way back and I knew that would be even more awkward. In other words, he would have been hurt either way: if I had said yes or no. So really I think this was the best way to spare him. I then get another THREE missed calls from an unknown number and a voicemail. I listen to the voicemail and it's Pete saying that this is home phone number. Seriously your home phone number?? Get outta here. So I proceed to text him saying that I think the connection dropped and that I'm going to bed and I tell him that I may possibly have a homecoming date because I had just found out that Nate was gonna ask me. That way he gets the message and his feelings are spared. I hope I did the right thing. Yikes, can you say rough day??

Catching Up

2011-10-07T12:51:00.000-07:00

Yes, I know it's been a couple days. But I've been busy with college stuff....too many applications! But on a good note I visited Mary Washington yesterday and it's safe to say I'm in love!!!!! Everything about this campus is absolutely perfect. The atmosphere, the spirit, the town, the campus! Love it!

Today we had Living Rosary and Christ House Soup Drive. The rosary was beautiful but I couldn't help but think of D-house the whole time. The Soup Drive was such a success, we collected over 8,000 cans! That's 8,000 meals for hungry people! Seeing the shelves at Christ House go from empty to full is kinda the most beautiful thing ever. And all I have to say is team AKA/Progresso. And I think it's safe to say I'm in love with Anthony.

On a side note: I got my flu shot. Yippie!

Not much else to report....

Successfully Unsuccessful

2011-10-04T16:34:00.000-07:00

Today was such a successfully unsuccessful day it's not even funny. Nothing was accomplished. Nothing memorable or funny happened. It was just sorta wish washy and lame. Which got me to thinking:

Do you determine your happiness? Or is it those around you that cause you happiness?

As much as I wish that your own happiness relied on yourself I'm almost positive that you receive your happiness from those around you. Think about it. You get happy when someone gives you a compliment or tells you a funny joke. Happiness hardly ever comes from inside you. And oh how I wish it did.

Not only was a miserably sad when I didn't have a chance to talk to Jared but my day revolved around thinking "oh man, Jared would think this is funny" or "gah I gotta tell Jared this." And I honestly hate myself for probably having such a crush on him still and he's probably so over me. Sometimes I feel like he still feels the same way but who am I kidding?

Sometimes it's easier to lie to yourself than tell yourself the awful truth...

Hey Look!! I'm here again!

2011-10-03T13:10:00.000-07:00

So as promised, I'd try to blog daily. So as I sit in the library attempting to get homework done before I go to work I decided to reflect on today's activities.

Let's see....

overslept and had to get ready in an all time record of 5 minutes (oops)!

As I was in class I decided that I would go with the silver sequin dress for Homecoming.

My school was literally an iceberg today. They refuse to turn the heat on and I sit in my desk trying to pay attention and copy notes but I find it nearly impossible when you can't stop shivering, goosebumps fill your body, your hands are too cold to grip the pen and write at a normal speed or even be able to write coherently, and your lips turn purple...which they were for most of the day.

Had several solid good laughs with Jared at lunch. Oh gee is it bad that I'll probably never get over him?

I've officially wasted fifteen minutes surfing the Internet and I should probably get back to "doing homework" before I have my shift at work. Which let me just say I hope that Ty is working because he is just too cute.

Over and out cyberspace.

New Year...Same Me

2011-10-02T11:23:00.000-07:00

So I'm back...again. I know, I know it's been a long time. But hey don't hate a girl for being busy.

It's senior year and things are well the same I guess? Not much has changed from last year. I guess the only thing that has changed is the amount of free time I have. With work, school work, college apps, and Student Council stuff there's hardly time for anything else. And when I do have extra time I just wanna crash and sleep.

I'm sitting here in Panera trying to get homework done and I thought to myself that I really should get my blog going again. It's senior year and I wanna be able to remember it all...even the stressful stuff.

(and a lady just came in Panera with a towel rapped around her waist?)

However stressful all this workload and all these extra responsibilities are the mere prospect of Beachweek is making it all worth it. I just simply have to get there in one piece. Eeepp!

After my falling out with Jared last year it seems like we're finally becoming friends...although I'll always have a crush on him. And I have fully accepted the fact that I will be going to homecoming stag...or I'll pay someone to take me. Although I think my best fried, Nate, might ask me. But I can't tell if that's just weird or not. Oh well.

I'll be making sure to keep this thing updated! ...HOPEFULLY!

2011-01-12T19:01:00.000-08:00

So it's 2011...

Let's see, where to start. New Year's Resolutions:

1. Focus, focus, focus, keep grades up. Don't lose track of what is important.

2. Forget/let go of him. Because he's NOT coming around.

3. Meditation of the mind, body, and soul.

Now let's talk about New Year's Eve itself. I feel like I should mention it because of how much build up there was. Well New Year's Eve in Times Square is CRAZY. If you really want to do the whole New Year's Eve in Times Square thing then you really have to get there SUPER EARLY and guard your spot with your life. I couldn't even see the ball drop and was sooooo jammed pack with everyone it was insane. I could hardly breath. Not only that but 3 seconds into the new year I dropped my phone in the super chaotic Times Square, luckily some man helped me find it. Honestly, he was my hero. It was a new phone and everything. Even though it was crazy it was still a very cool experience.

As for me, I'm trudging along school. Midterms are coming up next week. VERY STRESSFUL. On the bright side I got my research paper back on Fauvism and did very well. So all in all things are good. And on those days that I don't have enough sleep my Rohtos eye drops and coffee get me through the day.

Today is one of those really productive days. You know when you feel like you can conquer any problem. I just cleaned my WHOLE room and it was a MESS. I even hung up wall art that I got from my NYC trip. Now I just feel like staying up and doing more productive stuff.

SIDENOTE: Kate Chopin is one smart woman.

Christmas

2010-12-27T13:58:00.000-08:00

Christmas this year was just how I expected it to be. Bitter sweet. This year was more about the spirit of it all then the presents. I just love Christmas music, and the smell of the crisp winter air when you step outside your front door, snow falling on your eyelashes, Christmas movies, and Christmas appropriate episodes of your favorite shows. But I think my favorite Christmas related "thing" is hearing the Salvation Army bells ring outside the mall or grocery store and giving that dollar or two in the red metal bin and seeing a bright smile shine from the man ringing the bell and hearing him say a warm "Thank you, Merry Christmas!" It truly brings a smile to my face, sorry if that sounds cheesy.

This Christmas was bittersweet. It was great being with all my extended family, and somehow saying goodbye wasn't hard this time. Usually I'm a basket case, when it comes to goodbyes. But I'm glad this year I was composed and didn't pull out the waterworks.

So many things are crossing my mind as the New Year approaches. So many issues unresolved. When really a simple phone call, with an explanation and apology would give me peace of mind.

I'm back...I think

2010-12-27T13:18:00.000-08:00

So it's Winter Break and I have so much on my mind. So many things that bug me that I just wanna tweet about or make it my Facebook status but then I realize I can't because then everyone can see. So I realized I needed a place to vent a bit, a place where I could ramble on and no one would see. Because let's be honest, no one is reading this. So that's why I decided to pick up my blog again.

As I sit here listening to Cosmic Love by Florence and the Machine (my new obsession), I wonder what this blog should be about, because frankly I have no idea. So I guess we'll have to wait and see what come to mind.

As the New Year approaches I'm trying to set attainable goals for myself. You know, the usual New Year's goals that are only in practice for a good two months until you forget about them and go back to you usual ways. If only life was simpler, easier.

SIDENOTE: A couple months ago I found this book just sitting on a bench. It's called Tao and I there was a letter with it saying that if you found this book to read it because it changed the life of whoever it was who left it on the bench. I'm thinking about reading. Maybe it'll give me newfound wisdom or a new perspective for the upcoming year? We shall see...

Just a Small Empty Perfume Bottle

2009-07-21T18:31:00.001-07:00

Although it’s just a small empty perfume bottle it brings me back. The smell that still lingers when you screw off the top triggers my memory. & as I smell it I know that this is what will help me remember her forever. She will live on through the smell that she left lingering behind. The bottle smells of her. Her smell. Everyone has their smell. & hers is there captured in that bottle for all eternity.